the past

stumbled upon this photo
and a whole bunch of other awesome pics!
i miss you boracay!
i miss partying good and hard! it's been a while!
though i love being a mommy =)

then i reread my old blog entries.... 
brought back lots of good and bad memories.
mostly of things that lead to me being with mike,
our struggles to make it and how happy he makes me.
sometimes i still can't believe that i'm now mrs. manaloto
i refer to him a as a friend in some of my entries,
but now look at us....no longer friends. hahaha!
we've been through a lot since day one. (literally!)
hoping for the best =)

uneasy

writing here is therapeutic. i'm so glad i'm back to blogging. i love twitter but oftentimes 140 characters are not enough to express what i feel plus everything i write there are being scrutinized and some thoughts are misunderstood. 

i would like to think that slowly, everything is going to back to how stuffs are used to be but then i still feel uneasy and confused. most of the time it doesn't feel right, things don't add up and it's weird. i don't want this. i hate this.

i'm missing a lot of things. i'm longing for a lot of old TLC. i'm praying for it every night.

maybe this is just a phase, or maybe not. i don't want to think anymore. i'll just hope for the best, pray harder and keep quiet.

i miss you. i still do.

i'll wait for that day. i'll try to wait.  

my drama queen

sometimes

sometimes even if we think everything is okay, it's still not okay.

sometimes you just need to accept that things have changed, and embrace that change.

sometimes i wish that things don't have to change, that nothing has to change.

sometimes i pretend to be happy, even if i'm hurting so bad.

sometimes we chose not to say anything, because it will do us no good.

sometimes it hurts so bad, you just want to let go.

sometimes i wish for more time, time to be happy and enjoy the moment.

sometimes i want to talk to you, but you don't have the time and energy.

sometimes i hope you think of me, and not judge me.

sometimes i can feel the pain, i just shrug it off and show off a good front.

sometimes i'm numb, i don't want to feel anything anymore.

sometimes please think of me, be with me, talk to me, be your old self.

sometimes is not good thing, it's a bad sign of things yet to come. 

Missin you

I miss talking to you.

I miss you.

Share something with me.

Lets talk. Lets bond.

I miss you.

hello blog!

i miss you my blog! i miss ranting here! i miss writing here!

so i'm back with a vengeance and i'm here to stay....

2009 is obviously a super busy year for me: i got married, moved to quezon city, i stopped working and then unexpectedly gave birth. i barely had a chance to catch my breath or more so write nor update this site but still it's all good. i would say 2009 are full of life changing decisions for me but so far so good...there are complications, problems and misunderstandings but that's all part of change and change is good, change is inevitable. indeed life is full or surprises, so far all good surprises =)

more good surprises to come! =) see you soon my blog!