friday night

last friday was a memorable night.

a lot of unexpected things happened last friday, saturday and yesterday. things that i never ever thought would happen - ever. i guess some good things never last but then it is sad to know that she has reached the limit, that there is a limit to begin with...i thought what we had is something that will go beyond this lifetime - something that our grandchildren can still share....i guess i was wrong and proves again that nothing is permanent in this world, in our life.

needless to say, i was not prepared with whatever changes the world wants to offer - none of us were but as they say, life must go on - life will go on and as humans we should try our best to cope and adjust to the changes in our life.

i cannot really explain what happened - i'm lost for words, or maybe i'm just really lost as to why such a happy friday night turned out to be a crossroad for most of us. things happened so fast, one minute we were laughing, the next we were literally hoping we'll make it alive and then there's blogging and more blogging. and then after two days.....lost.

maybe last night is the closure we are all hoping for, maybe it's a new beginning for all of us...whatever it is, i know that god knows what's best for all of us and maybe it's his way of letting us know that some things are not just the way we think it is, some people are different from what we perceived they are and it's god's way of letting me know that i'm a stronger person than i think i'am.

i don't think i did something wrong other than being me - the real me. the way i acted last friday is the usual me - maybe a bit hyper (but i'm always hyper) but it's still me. if i teased too much or laughed too much...it's just right for the situation since it's a happy friday night, we are all teasing each other and laughing the night away. i guess, i can't please everybody and i can't make them love the real me.

as my fave song goes: "you've got to love me for what i'am for simply being me, don't love me for what you intend or hope that i would be....."

ako kase, i love with all my heart, accept flaws, and treasure people who i call my friends.

sabi ko nga parati: walang masamang tinapay sa akin, lahat ng taong mabait sa akin mahal ko at mamahalin ko basta wag lang ako gagaguhin, basta walang ginawang malaking kagaguhan.

there's such thing as second chance, i don't think i even used my first chance.

no goodbyes.

lomography

late last year, i got addicted to lomography and films. i started haunting down cheap lomo cameras and hoarding expired slide films, i even made extra money through this interest of mine - now i'm loving everything about lomography and appreciating it at the same time.

my latest lomo purchases:
vivitar uws, pn2011 and mariner

my latest lomo pictures:
taken with my vivitar uws
with expired velvia - cross processed

lomography is love. love. love.
lomo on!

this is it

my old boss called me yesterday and asked me if i would like to join her in her new work at another advertising firm - i always liked working with her because we somehow jive and we both know how to work our asses off, i told her that i'd think about it. and i'am thinking about it.

i bought a lot of new books yesterday and kiti sent me lots of e-books too (thanks baby!), almost done reading the curious incident of the dog in the night-time and it's a great book...skeptical at first if i will enjoy the book but turned out that i loved it. i missed reading lots of books, i don't know why i stopped reading and buying books - lack of time perhaps? so anyhow, i made a pact with myself to read at least 2 books in a month (i used to read 10 books a month). i should use my fully booked and powerbooks discount cards more often.

i also should watch at least 1 classic/old school movie like gone in the wind, big chill, mermaid, beaches and other cool old school movie. (i can do this!)

thinking of buying a new digital camera - canon S5 IS, it's a really cool camera and not that expensive too. yes, i'm also still thinking about it.

my shipment of films will arrive today - or tomorrow but within the week and i'm excited to make money! hahaha! okay and excited to shop for new stocks also - any kind of shopping is fun.

i lost 3 pounds, yehey! not eating rice and no dinner for 5 days rocks! i hope this will continues 10 pounds in a month is a breeze then! wuhooo!!!

i'am getting lazy, lazier. hahaha! i should so all the things that i listed down my starbucks planner. i should! should! should! now na. whew. too many things to do, so little time. whoa!

this is it, the time for all kinds of growth. getting old sucks. hmmmm...it's fun but most of the time sucks but i must channel good vibes - positivity, all good things and all happiness. awesome.

realize

Realize by Colbie Caillat

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

fly me to the moon

last night was my first time to camwhore the moon and it's fascinating- full moon last night, a great time to capture its awesomeness. sana pwede din i-camwhore ang stars, pero miki and i browsed how much yung lens for the stars at muntik na kami mamatay sa mahal - almost 350k, but that would be awesome, radical, out of this world!

TRIVIA ABOUT THE MOON: The full moon has been linked to crime, suicide, mental illness, disasters, accidents, birthrates, fertility, and werewolves (yes, lobo!) - among other things.

Popular legend has it that the full moon brings out the worst in people: more violence, more suicides, more accidents, more aggression. The influence of the moon and behavior has been called "The Lunar Effect" or "The Transylvania Effect." The belief that the full moon causes mental disorders and strange behavior was widespread throughout Europe in the middle ages. Even the word "lunacy" meaning "insanity" comes from the Latin word for "moon."

sabi nga nila - baka bilog ang buwan!

calatagan escapade

had a great time at pansol last wednesday and at calatagan yesterday! saya mag-summer get-away ng weekday!

joko had fun sa kneeboarding hurah niya and she's good ha, sabi nga ni doinee - parang figurine kase si joko eh. anyways, i think athletic lang talaga ang jona! mwahahha! si doinee naman magaling maghabol ng boards niya! go deo martin!

sana na-achieve ni kulot ang maging tan for the summer, though kahapon para lang siyang lechon na mamula-mula, gawa siguro yun sa beer na pinanligo niya for the tan kuno!

i got around 600 pics to upload and good luck sa akin all over again. weh! tired! hahaha! plus 5 rolls of films that i need to develop - kaso wala pa akong pera!

masakit ang mga joints ko at parang paos-paos ako, wish ko lang hindi ako magkasakit kase mahirap magkasakit at ayoko. super tired dahil sa two consecutive days of swimming.

anyways, we had dinner at hula last night before heading home and the food is really good! yummyness! at sabi ko nga kay kiti, tom na lang ulet tayo mag-diet nakakalungkot ang hindi kumain pag kasama mo ang mga friendships! hahaha!

to follow pictures from mom's b-day party - we used yanie's under water camera! yehey!

back to work on a friday, kung hindi lang ako puro leave hindi na ako papasok today! hahha! kaso para makaleave ulet ng madami, dapat magpacute din ng madami! hehehe!

okay, got to work na for i've got tons of paper trails in my desk plus more emails to reply to.

next stop is cebu and bohol (unless biglang may get-away ulet!)

p.s. i want a new cellphone. pls buy me one! (please?!)

summer time

weird kase may bagyo nung isang araw - bagyo kahit summertime? pati ata si mother nature nalilito na....nakakawindang na daw ang pangyayari sa world!

so today is my mommy's birthday - 57 na siya at 3 years to go senior citizen na siya! yehey! 20% discount is the best! i got her a liz claiborne wallet, terno kami and then a big and awesome make-up kit at terno ulet kami! hahaha!

ang gimik ni mommy for her birthday ay swimming party! o di ba? bagets na bagets! hahaha! sana lang makapunta ako kase weekday di ba? but will try my uber best to be there! anyway, looking forward to trying out my underwater camera for the first time - though sayang at hindi ko siya magagamit ng daytime - i wonder if anung outcome pag night time....hmmm.....

excited na ako sa calatagan trip tomorrow! awesomeness!! and cebu/bohol trip in may! wow! todo summertime na ito! let's go! sana matuloy ang bora trip namin on my b-day! yehey! ang saya! todo na for summer! hehe!

went out for dinner and movies with joko, dino and kiti last friday - last kita namin ng mejia wonder twins ay beyonce concert pa....namiss ko sila in fairness! and looking forward to our bonding trip tomorrow! yahooness! ang saya ng camwhoring bonding session sa gitna ng atc - walang hiya talaga tayo. bow!

his theme song

i swear - i'd still say yes, is his theme song:

And even if our love could drift away
I wouldn’t even think twice
If I wanted love back again

Because I’d still say yes to you again
My Darlin’ for you, I do it all again
Yes, I’d still say yes to you again
Darlin’ for you, I do it over and over again (Say yes..oh-oh)

t-a-n-g-a ata talaga siya or baka comfortable na lang talaga siya.
only god knows....basta ang masasabi ko lang, he deserves better.

finally, he stopped. i'm not sure if he finally moved on or napagod na lang din...
kase hindi ko siya pinapansin? or i finally got pissed? i don't want to know.

why o why?!

look how thin iam last year....huhuhu!!! hindi ko din alam kung anung nangyari! or maybe it's because kumakain na ulet ako ng rice. huhuhu! rice is bad. hmph! okay, i will diet harder.

march - april of 2007 (sexy me!)

and i'm back

yes, i'm really back. i had super fun at hong kong. super enjoy ako sa disneyland kahit na super nakakapagod maglakad ng maglakad - to think that hong kong disneyland is smaller than the one in LA - i wonder kung panu ko nakaya ang disneyland LA before...maybe, i'm just getting older. anyways, not much shopping for me at hong kong though i bought lots of pasalubong for my la familia and they loved it. oh and i was able to hoard lots of paper mala origami stars at hong kong! ang saya! that made my trip! hahaha! i know mababaw but happiness!

saya din ng bonding with friends and officemates and kiddies.

i must go out with joko and miki soon!

i must do more business so that i can travel more because travelling is LOVE.

i must save more, for more travelling thingymajig.

i must explore asian countries and pinas for more fun!