stranger

dear stranger,

i can't believe what happened to you, you've become self-absorbed and all knowing. it's sad to know that you are not the same person you used to be but what's worst is that you've changed not for the better. i admire how you can talk nicely to other people and turn into a nasty one when you talk to me which is not very often.

i will not pretend to like you anymore nor try to understand why you are like a monster to me. instead i will try to just let you go and accept the fact that no matter how hard i pray or try to recreate the past, you will not go back to the old you. the old you that i really really like, the one i prayed for to find, the one i thought i was lucky enough to have.

thank you for turning me into this numb, i don't care anymore, i'm tired kind of girl. =) i hope it is all worth it, i hope you are happy. i hope one day you will realize that you're an asshole and of all people you treated me like a dirt. i deserve some respect.

you are pushing me to be like this. you are making this very easy.

love,

me =)

the end

yesterday was the end.

i decided to stop caring.

i will stop trying to make things work.

i will stop trying to give sense to everything.

i will stop reaching out.....

i will stop trying to understand

i will stop giving other people the power to hurt me.

i will stop expecting....

i will not beg for something that i deserve.

i will not ask for more

i will not be taken for granted.

i will not be a dummy...

i will not cry, i will not be sad.

i will be thankful for opening my eyes,

closing my heart, for being numb.

yesterday i stopped feeling anything.

this is the end.