unplanned

time flies when you're having fun and it's true that spontaneity rocks with a little dash of planning, just a little.

seeing things in a different light, hopefully this time it'll be better and not turn into something ugly all over again. it's irritating and i don't wanna go through shits all over again.

i spent the weekend over at my parents place! it was awesome and i ate a lot! i missed yaya's cooking and i think i gained 5lbs from my two day stay. i love my family.

i miss lomography, hoping after bagyong juan we can all go to Luneta and go lomo-ing

i love caitlin so much, she keep me sane and grounded. she's so adorable. i would say without her things will be a lot different. thank God for caitlin.

lemme enjoy life more. ciao!

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caitlin•august 2010

Caitlin would like to thank the following:

1. ninang miki for making time to take her photos

2. carters and tito benjie viloria for her dresses

3. mommy for her headbands and for having awesome genes

4. ate lorry her PA/stylist/diaper expert

5. dada for making her laugh and for being her bodyguard

6. God =)

slow

i'm learning a lot from life

i'm learning a lot about myself

i'm getting there and it's gonna be awesome

life is indeed full of surprises

one step at a time

here's to getting to where we want to be

slowly but surely

a new me

will now stop caring too much...

no more nice carla....

i wanna move on already!

this is the new me.

goodbye old carla!

in the end

in the end, it doesn't really matter....

i'm tired of waiting for my rocket to come....

it will not come, change is supposed to be good...

i'm done expecting, hoping for something good....

i'm not gonna smile again...

so much for my happy ending....

back at one

Its not the way you want it to be

Its never gonna be like before

Why does it has to change?

I want it back, I want it that way...

berry berry

I have a new phone!
I have to let go of 1k plus of awesome msgs though...
Irreplaceable messages and memories...
I hope its worth it...
I'm bad in letting go sentimental stuffs...hay!
Afraid that it might not be worth it...
I hope to I can save more awesome messages quite soon...
But I'm seriously doubting it...
No time for those things na...
So welcome blackberry.

P.s. I still so love you iphone and n95

happiness

hello blog!
it's been quite sometime since i rant here....
a lot happened...
i realized a lot of things,
and a lot of things changed....
for the better....
been praying more...
been smiling more...
getting my life back slowly but surely...

thank you for being patient...
thank you for still being there for me....
i will continue to move forward
and never look back...

happiness is a choice...

Letting go

I don't know why i'm still here when it's obvious that i don't need to be here

i don't know anymore the reason why i'm holding on

i don't know how long i can bear the disappointments and sadness

i don't know if i should still care when it's apparent that i should not care

i don't know why i'm still holding on when i should just let go

i don't know why i bother to think or try, it's not getting better

i don't know if this is all worth it, if this is really for me

i don't know anymore, i'm lost and tired

all i know is that i have to let go. Let it all go. Goodbye.

Between the lines

Its a different him that i don't usually see....it scares me.

I guess no matter how long it has been, he's different when i'm not around...

When in doubt just think of the good times. Ü

i miss those good times....its been a while.

Missin a lot of things. I still miss you!

I realized a lot of things. Discovered some painful stuffs.

At the end of the day, it doesn't matter. What i feel doesn't matter.

No pain, no gain.

Smile like i mean it.

girl time!

girl time at last! =)
shopping, pedicure and more shopping with joko
and then dinner with iya, kassy and joko
yummy qoola courtesy of kassy
and more girl bonding!
i love my girls! miss you guys na agad!

post v-day

yes hubby gave me some flowers for v-day, which is a big SURPRISE!

slowly but surely.

almost there but not quite yet.

happiness is a choice.

i'll try my best to wait patiently.

life is better without you. thank you!

love is all around

so it's almost valentines day and love is all around.....

SING IT PLEASE: i feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes, love is all around me, and so the feeling grows...

daming pressure at expectations pag valentines....whew.

it's not one of my fave holiday....sad magexpect kasi! cliche!

and for trivia: no v-day celebration for me ever....i don't know why...well maybe meron but nothing that is memorable or so. i don't know why! no v-day that is memorable? that's bad. there's a lot of b-day celebration that is really memorable but no v-day? wow!

nakakasad ang valentines noh?

buti na lang kasabay ng chinese new year, deadma na lang sa valentines.

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on random thoughts:

addicted to dairy queen and it's all mike's fault. =)

i want steak, the cheap one, the one in the food court! just because.

i miss UP fair!

i want a happy ending for K and D. compromise. make it work. wag matigas ulo ha!

moving to the other side tomorrow. hhhhmmmmmm....i wonder....

still no massage....must go to the spa and use my GC....soon!

i love you caitlin, even if you're awake almost the whole day and my arms really hurts from carrying you the whole day....you're a big girl and still growing.

okay, i must sleep because caitlin might wake up and my arms and back needs rest!

i love you blog! happy valentines to you my blog!

DON'T LOVE YOU NO MORE (I'M SORRY)

DON'T LOVE YOU NO MORE (I'M SORRY)

For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors

That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face

That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

good times

with my best friends
february 7,2010

i super enjoyed our tagaytay trip yesterday.
i missed my girls, too bad kwe was not there
but it's still all good. and fun fun fun!

i love lomo, buzz, my panda whistle, carlos pizza,
green halls, enteng, uly, margarita, tita mirriam,
special hot strawberry drink from starbucks,
smb light, cold tagaytay weather and my girls! =)

good vibes

yehey! finally moving on. an answered prayer and thank God for that.

excited for more home improvements! =)

hoping for more bonding time though! i miss you so much.

i miss hanging out with you. and talk talk talk. i miss you!

okay, let me just say that i'm super excited for sunday! weeeee!

i plan to consume like 5 rolls of films! go lomo!

i want kimono ken's tofu thingymajig.

i want to win a nokia 5230! please God and Mo Twister. hahaha!

i just got some of my lomo cameras! weeee. thank you virg!

i love my skittles, enjoying it while blogging.

i'm also currently watching true blood, and then vampire diaries.

i still miss you so much.

okay, good vibes on! forever!

break!

break! break! break! break!

looking forward to our tagaytay trip over the weekend, i'm excited to be with my girls.

looking forward to meeting kassy's bubu.

excited to lomo again. weeeee.

i want to feel tagaytay's lovely weather.

i miss banio kreek and karaoke with miki and joko.

i want to food trip with llb.

let's visit uly and gail! our fave baristas!

tagaytay will always be my happy place =)

i need a break. i'm excited to have that break.

walang kokontra please! i deserve the break.

hello february!

hello february! i can't believe we're on the second month of 2010 already! the month of romance! 13 days to go til valentines day! 

caitlin's growing up so fast, she can now lift her head and shift it when she's sleeping on her stomach. she also shifted her diaper size to small instead of newborn. she now weighs 4.2kg or 9lbs and she is already 21.75 inches long. she can finish a big can of similac advance in just 6 days with breastfeeding. let me just say wow! growing so fast. 

i miss taking lomo pics and the excitement of going to digiprint to have the films processed and the joy of looking at the pics after a few days of developing it. i wish i can go some place where i can lomo a lot. i miss you lomoraphy. i miss my analog cameras, it's still in our place at las pinas...need to make room for them here at my new home. let's lomo soon!

i miss you glee, please come back soon.

i miss my girls! it's a good thing that i had a chance to spend quality time with joko last thursday but i wish i can see all my girls real soon. i miss hanging out with you guys!

i want an ipad. and a blackberry.

i love ranting here in my blog! thank you blog!

the past

stumbled upon this photo
and a whole bunch of other awesome pics!
i miss you boracay!
i miss partying good and hard! it's been a while!
though i love being a mommy =)

then i reread my old blog entries.... 
brought back lots of good and bad memories.
mostly of things that lead to me being with mike,
our struggles to make it and how happy he makes me.
sometimes i still can't believe that i'm now mrs. manaloto
i refer to him a as a friend in some of my entries,
but now look at us....no longer friends. hahaha!
we've been through a lot since day one. (literally!)
hoping for the best =)