private life

the beginning.
violent reactions? keep it to yourself or rant in your own blog
better yet make everyone happy and just die.

stop and stare. stare a long time.
starting today, my life will be just for my friends (true and not pretentious)
my family, people who cares for me and random strangers
who can read my mind because all my entries will
just be feeling or random thoughts that psycho people
will never get since they are stupid, feelingera and not part of my life.

same goes for my other online account.
multiply, facebook, friendster, myspace.

get a life. cause i have mine.
happy that you are not included in it. (even if you're trying hard to be in it)
and looks like someone is starting to let go of psychos too.
don't make me laugh. yes, you make me laugh than piss me off.
stop. or you'll be more sad. (then more pathetic!)
oh, by the way....i just learned that i have the power.
(cue song: i've got the power.....)

okay, let's move on. yes?......
time to move on. move on and accept that i'm the winner.
(and you're the loser!)

through good and bad

friday was a hectic day for my social calendar highlights as follows:

- attended uno's hottest women thingymajig at a.venue hall, makati. thanks miki for the vip awesome list, wish kasama ka namin and yeah as kassy would say, "lots of hotties in the area, let me get one!" hahahaha! panalo ang hirit ni kas forever.
- bar hopped to bureau for the launching and as usual vip list kami ulet - thank you kassy for the dj connection. bar hopping cmon!
- joko's car got this little problem so we had to improvise to go to morato, which nagawan namin ng paraan because we're awesome.
- so our driver on the way to morato rocked! sobra! "it must have been love, but its over now...."
- watched our cebuano boys and happy to hear their new cover songs! yipppeee awesomeness. at least paid off ang practice almost everyday. had fun at their gig. super fun. 
- went to wake of boksnys dad after the gig with the boys minus ruben and jhie. all i can say is that we bonded in that wake. ibang level ng closeness after.
- felt good to be there for boks, kase inaalagaan naman talaga niya din kami ng sobra. will never forget zambales and oktobefest plus all other in between. hope you feel better boks!
- universe is awesome, because even if 5am na ako umuwi - parentals is still cool and we pushed through our thing as planned even if he has errands the whole day. thank you for the nice nice sweet night.
- he is awesome. bow. speechless ako eh. ask me na lang what i feel.

thank you happiness

i just would like to thank my friends who are always there for me whenever i need to rant and share my problems (na hindi naman talaga problem i think...)

thank you joko, kas and miki. i know you've been there for me since the beginning - lalo na si miki and joko. alam nyo ang mala-soap opera kong buhay (naks!)

thank you to my mom for being so understanding. love yah! (thank you family!)

thank you KFP for always reassuring me that whatever happens we're a team. i appreciate it.

thank you for trying to mess with me or us - because we are getting closer than ever. thank you.

thank you for proving to the whole world that you are an asshole, that you don't deserve whatever it is that you are desperately trying to get.

thank you guys (people who loves me) for always reminding me that i deserve to be happy and i deserve that happy ending even if everything is still uncertain - i just want you guys to know that i appreciate it.

thank you MBM for making me sooooooooo happy. blessed to have you in my life.

just in case, at least alam nyo how grateful i'am for everything. life is good. GOD is good.

9-11

Simple, cut through, brilliant and full of heart.


"They hit the towers, but missed the heart."

oh yes!

oh yes, may topak ako. (uh huh, don't fucking mess with me!)

kelan pa naging healthy ang beer?

fine, pumayag na nga ako na healthy ang beer, pero hindi pa din okay.....

so sue me.

pissed off.

not a good a idea to mess with an anemic girl, with tons of workload and monthly period.

i'm not sarcastic, i'm actually being supportive.

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!! gggggggrrrrr!

enough!

09-13-08

september 13,2008 is the DATE.

life is still awesomely good

octoberfest pics

random pics from our friday night bonding time
dinner at racks, octoberfest at ortigas, midnight snack at mr. kebabs
(yes, another pawisan bonding with GRGS!)

we are moving to the other side of our office since the other side will be under renovation starting september 13. in short, we are sorting out kalats and not kalats and putting them in boxes - lots of boxes. excited for our new and improved office come november 2008.

can't help to camwhore
since na-amaze ako sa daming ng boxes sa office namin,
sobrang dami talaga parang hindi na kami babalik. hahaha!

RANDOM THOUGHTS:

habang pinipigilan mas lalong nangigigil, kaya wag ng pigilan please?

parating nanalo ang good people sa dulo - parang sa movie! at totoo din yun sa real life.

gusto ko ng harana - sobra. c'mon. please? hahahha!

can't believe that avril is now dancing.....yeah. dancing while singing!

have sore throat, i hope i don't get sick.

i need to talk to joko....where are you joko??!! help!!!!

surprise! i want surprise!! waaaaah!!!

he said: i want you to be happy, i don't want you to be sad that's why i'm not doing the things that makes you sad.

i said: pwede naman kaseng happy everybody but they don't get it.

still good vibes. still happy. still steady.

yeah, everybody seems to love me....
(ganun talaga pag cute! hahaha!)
i love you too richard!

oktoberfest 120

olats ang oraganizer ng oktoberfest. sobrang olats to the highest level. buti na lang we rock at nagawan namin ng paraan otherwise sad kami. pero hindi din siguro since awesome naman kami whatever happens. (yeah, humble pa kami niyan!)

amazing ang pasalubong from greenhills and awesome new gestures. amazing.

amazing ang boys sa amin! bouncers cum security.

anyhow. more kwento later. im still sleepy!

i love third eye blind!!!!!! waaaaah!! semi charmed life!

thanks guys for another awesome night!

some kind of wonderful

good news from work: salary increase! weeeeee!!! love it! hahaha! yes, i'm a workaholic hence i know i deserve it (wala ng kokontra please!)

going to watch third eye blind on friday. weeeee. can't wait. semi charmed life is awesome!

marge is not moving to mccann, yehey! cue theme song: if we hold on together......

new term: HARUTAN (define harutan please!)

fondue - harrison style!

suprises are amazing. right? right? (right.....)

LSS: pag SINASAKTAN mo ako, yan ang GUSTO ko (ay sus! ay sus!)

what he did yesterday is cute. he trusts me and he wants me to be happy - yes....so delete it!

i have a new theme song, courtesy of miki (hindi salot ang mga kulot - don't be a hairists!!!) - anyhow, presenting my song:

MISERY BUSINESS by Paramore

I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass that's tickin' like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...
When I thought he was mine, she caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months, she finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie, he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we'd caught on fire
She's got it out for me, but I wear the biggest smile

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I passed it up, now look this way!

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like, it's "easy if you do it right"

Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good...

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now...

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good

hang-over

hang-over pa din sa eraserheads concert, gusto ko ng part 2!!!! waaaah!!! anyways, natutuwa ako ulit ulitin panoodin ang mga vids sa youtube. sobrang natutuwa. addict!

more awesome vids at:
http://www.inquirer.net/vdo/player.php?vid=1486&pageID=2

awesome concert pic ats:
http://spoonmachine.multiply.com/photos/album/39/Eraserheads_Reunion_Concert

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hang-over sa mga harassments, hirap pala maging masaya. daming kontrabida. bow.

sabi nga niya: baby don't be scared, of the things that could go wrong along the way.......
you'll get by with a smile, now it's time to kiss away those tears goodbye....

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hang-over sa trabaho. padami ng padami ng padami ng padami. pero okay lang kaya pa naman.

business is good also. thank you clients for making my atm happy. happy. happy. happy.

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hang-over sa camera. dahil gusto ko na naman ng bago. hmph.

joko, shopping on sat? yes?

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hang-over sayo. addict sayo.

awesome!

08.30.08 is eheads day

eraserheads is awesome. yes bitin nga lang dahil sa emergency ni ely pero the best pa din. super the best! i've been to a lot of concert but i can say that this concert is one of the best kahit local artist ang eheads at pinaka madaming taong pumunta ever - to think na standing room only ang concert, two days before the concert lang nagstart ang selling ng tix at super init last night. eraserheads is really one of a kind, kahit mga other artists  at bands hindi ata nagpabook last night dahil lahat sila andun din. awesome night. sana may repeat when ely gets better. 

sayang talaga hindi na nila nakanta ang pare ko at huling el bimbo! waaaaah!

thank you to the following:
mike for the SVIP access (na tinalo ang VIP ni kas! hehehe!)
kas for the VIP access (kahit na tinalo ka ni mike!)
joko for dinner and ride
fritz for remembering where mike parked the van, for getting us water as well!
jie for the pangugulat at pangugulantang sa amin
vanex for just being at my side during the whole concert
mike again for a lot of awesome things. heheh! (too many to mention)
kuya for buying us tix and making sure that whatever happens ill be part of history! (yeah!)
eraserheads for the rocking awesome night!!! i love you guys!!!

ganun talaga parang awards night at nanalo ako ng trophy. wag na mangialam! hehehe!

08.30.08 is worth remembering, awesome bonding time with my HAPPY. =) thank you!

photo credit: kassy pajarillo

positivity

i'm trying to keep all things positive, trying to ignore what other people say against me and my so-called new found happiness...in as much as i can shield what i'm feeling towards everything i'm only human and i get hurt.

whatever is happening - just happened. believe it or not, i did not plan anything and whatever was said that morning after was also a surprise for me.

i'm not a selfish person and i can share. (in a very wholesome - platonic way!)

thank you for always reassuring me that whatever happens you will always be there for me.

i plan to keep my game face on and be positive.

i don't play dirty tricks on anybody.

love is a battlefield, get some scars! (right joko?!)

it's starting to feel right and sound awesome. as he said, growing day by day.

happiness is a choice. let's just all be happy.

happy. still very happy.

ready to rumble

so after much ado about eheads reunion concert - tuloy na siya on saturday! yipeee!! at thank you kuya for buying the tickets kahit na naheart attack ka sa text ko na - KUYA, DO YOU LOVE ME?
hahaha! akala ata ay magpapakamatay na ako. hahaha!

statement of the week: im awfully missing you na....

excited na ako sa eheads! mwahahahahaha!!!!

yun lang. back to work dahil swamped with work na ako. weeeeee.

it's about time

arrival of my new cellphone from work!
Nokia E71, white steel. perks of being hardworking!

can't wait to butingting it na....i love gadgets. love it. love it.

next: n95 or n85?
gusto ko sana ng sony ericsson pero, hirap ng iba iba ang charger.
dami ko parating cables na dala, ipod, camera, cell, macbook, psp.
waaaah. sana merong universal charger - for all gadgets.

this is my blog.....

this is my blog
anything i write here is my own business
i don't fabricate any stories,
i don't just imagine things.
if you have anything against what i write here,
anything - good or bad, right or wrong, yes or no,
please comment.....
otherwise keep it to yourself and die with it.

thank you!

guess who loves me....(haba ng hair!)

amazing!.....(race?)
i love you too rovilson! mwah! mwah!

HAPPY. HAPPY. JOY. JOY

yesterday was awes0me! happy day. kilig day. great day!

1ST STOP: multiply change of status thingymajig from mike
totally unexpected, nakaka-aliw and admittedly nakakakilig....
he sent me PM via multiply as well as email.
sweet naman talaga....hmmmm....

2ND STOP: made almost 25k from my awesome film business
i love it because almost break even na ako from reservations pa lang...
sana magbayad na lahat para masaya ang buhay and i can shop
again for a new camera....(or perhaps just save it?)
i'll think about it, masaya though magshopping...

3RD STOP: surprise visit from mike kahit 10pm na
in fairness, galing ni mike kase nakarating siya ng house ko kahit
hindi alam ni joko at kassy ang address ko. hahahha!
at ang lakas ng loob ni mike to meet my parents - bow ako.
it was an awesome experience though...kakaiba sa surprise.

thank you mike for the late night visit,
kahit alam mo na malayo ang bahay ko, alam ko napagod ka sa pagdrive
at napagastos ka sa gas at toll fee....thank you!
thank you for the pasalubongs (na suhol talaga) that you gave my mom
thank you for buying joko her cookies (and buying me one too!)
thank you for meeting my parents, guts baby!
thank you for calling while driving, and calling when you got home.

thank you joko and kas kahit sobrang comedy kayong 2,
thank you miki for letting me share my moment,
sorry joko sa almost heart attack mo.....

i'm blessed to have you guys.
thank you for making me extremely happy =)

family lovin' - viloria style

viloria-cabral nuptial
sofitel philippine plaza
august 18,2008

new addition to the viloria clan
gregory jr and gabriel victor!



new addition to my family of cameras
vivitar ic10o and polaroid 600 ultra!

randomness

bilog ata ulet ang buwan, madami kaseng tao ang nag-aamok at hindi maintindihan ang mga kinikilos. weird talaga.

anyways, i felt a bit bad about what happened - i don't know if we just have bad choice of people to be with or they just don't want us to be happy? hmmmm....weird na nangyari sa amin both ang parehong bagay - almost parehong bagay. nevertheless, i think they just love us too much....or we love them too much? basta may too much factor involved dun!

thank you joko for going with me to shop for a dress for my cousins wedding. both dress are awesome that's why sobrang torn pa din ako until now. hahaha. though nakuha ni pink halter top dress ang last important vote - hence i shall wear it tomorrow!

i'm back to selling films since dumating na ang new stocks of films ko. close to 80,000 na ang reservations ko which means konti na lang bawi na ako sa investments ko and orders after 90,000 will be my income na! rock on! excited to test na din new films i've acquired abroad. thank you to my new lucky charm! =)

namiss ko talaga siya....sabi niya he missed me so much. =) ang saya! hahahaha!!

i really need to clean my closet. now na! (okay, soon!)

lets go roadtrip! or out of the country trip! lets go!!!

i got to go - back to packing films and replying to uber daming emails/film orders! ciao!

missing

I'm missing you and it's making me blue,
yeah I'm missing you but what can I do

Thousand miles away, from you...

okay, it's not really making me blue - it's prolly more of parang kulang ang araw ko. ganun!

i miss ate yanie...i seriously want her to be my sister-in-law. i hope she and kuya can still patch things up already and then get married and make lotsa babies that i can spoil.

i miss zong! gusto ko ng pan fried chicken encrusted in salted egg. yummy!

i miss GRGS, i hope we could have some kinda trip for august, dapat pala sumama na kami sa cebu! mwahahaha! for more bonding with the family! cmon! yes yes! hahaha!

i miss selling films - its a good thing that my stocks arrived today. yehey! back to business na ako! and hoping that my next shipment will not be delayed. (thank you kat!)

i miss you! i seriously did not think that i would miss you but i do. =)